sick of being sick...

i have been really bad about blogging, and i apologize. there have just been lots of things going on to distract me. one of the major distractions has been my continued sickness. i have had a sore throat since the beginning of april, it's not as bad as it was then, but it is still sore and annoying. i have also had a breakout of EN.  i went to a new doctor, and he has been a big help, but the process is slow. he determined i may have Epstein Barr disease. i looked it up on line, and i have a lot of the symptoms, but when i talked to the nurse practitioner who has treated me in the past, she thinks it's more than Epstein Barr. she thinks it may be something like lupus. my doctor wants me to go to an immunologist at stanford. i am just waiting to get my appointment, of course that's been a run around too.  both my doctor and nurse practitioner agree it's some sort of auto immune disorder. i've been feeling like crap, and the medicine i have to take for the en, takes care of the en, but still makes me feel like crap all over. it is pretty depressing to feel like crap, and not know why you feel that way and not know if the feeling is going to go away. so if i have not been the friendliest and kind of anti social, this is why. i'm pretty miserable. i hate to complain about it, because there is nothing anybody can do about it, but i just wanted everyone to know why i have been kind of absent lately.